About Rain in June: Me, Twenty Six Years Old, and The Poetry that Loses Her Mother

nyawanyawa berhihihaha di jalanan kota, masuk gang buntu pinggir bangunan raksasa, satu tiga lima anak terbaring tanpa celana, kehilangan suara, sejak ayah melayat ke gedung dewa.

Happy Birthday to me! Happy Birthday to me! Happy Birthday to me! I’m 26 years old now. It’s been a week since my birthday. I got some surprises and a lot of gifts.

• To June, thanks for sharing adorable moments with me. I love you without “but” in everything. When I’m full of happiness until I got an illness this month.
• To Myself, I enjoy all of our journeys. Struggling with many conditions, up and down together, our day always full with a schedule start from before Subuh until night. Now, we must take a deep breath and walk like in the spring season. I’m so sorry for this atmosphere. I promise you. We’ll healthy soon and ready to catch up on our dreams.
• To My First Daughter, I said apologies to you. I leaving you in the past. I know it’s my mistake. I want to repair it. I wanna home now. I miss you so damn. You don’t lose your mother, but I lose my words (the words that guide me to found you).

I kill the time by reading a book. I finished “Mindset” written by Carol S. Dweck. It’s a self-improvement book that I buy when I got upset in my life.

In the last month, someone broke my heart. He steals my smile and I just crying for a week. I try to keep moving forward. I made a mini-project with my team. My Ramadan is so full with this agenda. I made my days busy.

Back to “Mindset”. I start to read this book last Ramadan. I continue to read it when I’m sick in the last three days ago. Yesterday I finished. This book shows us about fixed mindset and growth mindset. How the people with a fixed mindset faced a problem in their life and how they decide with their mind. They just believe with their mind, can’t look around and scared of changes.

In otherwise, people with a growth mindset have many perspectives of their life. They love each other and helping them, not give a judgement. They love to learn about everything.

Prof. Carol shows many examples of fixed mindset and growth mindset. At the end of the part, there is a step to develop our mindset. Are we still in a fixed mindset? Or we have to move to a growth mindset.

It’s my first English note. I’m so sorry if there are many errors in my writing. I hope you enjoy your day. Stay healthy, Everyone! I Love You.

See you in the next series. It’s “a note after reading”.